I noticed in the Adstringendum CR meme that you seemed disheartened by people not tagging you, and you also mentioned that you feel unwelcome. I'm sorry you feel that way! Your characterization is very good, but I think that people usually skip over your posts because building CR with you can be very difficult, unfortunately. :( If you look at Sheik's two latest posts other than the one you just made, you never responded to the tag each one of them got. Looking at other posts, you drop almost all of the threads in them... and this hasn't been a recent thing, I'm afraid. If you look at Sakura's journal from when you played her in adstring (http://hits-then-heals.livejournal.com/
), there are lots of posts with threads dropped very quickly and even some with comments that went totally unanswered.
Please don't take this as me hating on you, and I'm not trying to be harsh! I know I would personally love CR with you, because your characterization seems excellent when it's there... otherwise, you are just pretty nonexistent. If you want people to tag you, tag them! If you make an effort to thread with people, and just make sure you are conscientious about not dropping threads very quickly, you should see a great improvement fast.
Hello anon! Sorry I didn't have a HMD post before, I've always been sort of lazy with ones on actual journals, but I'm trying to make a change in my game so having one might help now so here it is.
Thank you for the crit. I know I probably sounded whiny in the CR meme, it was mostly something that I've been bottling up for a long time and I just needed to get it out. I've had a discussion on plurk with Wind just a little while and I asked her to be honest with me and every single concern she had pretty much was reflected in your comments above. I know I've had issues for a few months and I know I've been the one to dig my own grave on this, but I really want to try and dig myself out because I really really miss being active in this game. A lot of what happens is me talking myself down, telling myself no one wants to play with me and that I'll just be bugging people with back tags if I wait too long and yeah, I just keep talking down to myself and it's really not helping.
Wind was telling me the same thing about just keeping up with threads, even if they take a long time and how the people who tag me want to play with me. I feel awful that I keep dropping the ball on CR and that I've probably lost a lot of opportunities that could have been great. But I want to change. And maybe letting out this little venting (and sort of addressing the elephant in the room I keep ignoring) will be the first step toward me getting out of these habits (and I've picked up the threads again from my last post because I was even thinking other day how I wish I hadn't dropped them because they could end up being pretty great CR).
You're totally not hating on me and I really appreciate the concrit and I really hope that this is the first steps toward me becoming a better player and dropping less threads and gaining more CR. So thank you, honorable anon, for talking to me honesty about this. I really appreciate it!
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Date: 2013-05-12 06:00 am (UTC)Thank you for the crit. I know I probably sounded whiny in the CR meme, it was mostly something that I've been bottling up for a long time and I just needed to get it out. I've had a discussion on plurk with Wind just a little while and I asked her to be honest with me and every single concern she had pretty much was reflected in your comments above. I know I've had issues for a few months and I know I've been the one to dig my own grave on this, but I really want to try and dig myself out because I really really miss being active in this game. A lot of what happens is me talking myself down, telling myself no one wants to play with me and that I'll just be bugging people with back tags if I wait too long and yeah, I just keep talking down to myself and it's really not helping.
Wind was telling me the same thing about just keeping up with threads, even if they take a long time and how the people who tag me want to play with me. I feel awful that I keep dropping the ball on CR and that I've probably lost a lot of opportunities that could have been great. But I want to change. And maybe letting out this little venting (and sort of addressing the elephant in the room I keep ignoring) will be the first step toward me getting out of these habits (and I've picked up the threads again from my last post because I was even thinking other day how I wish I hadn't dropped them because they could end up being pretty great CR).
You're totally not hating on me and I really appreciate the concrit and I really hope that this is the first steps toward me becoming a better player and dropping less threads and gaining more CR. So thank you, honorable anon, for talking to me honesty about this. I really appreciate it!